I really don't know how to even start this blog...
Well...I'll just begin. Wednesday May 28, 2008. A day that will never be forgotten or lose meaning... That afternoon at 5:28 pm I gave birth to a beautiful and perfect 7lb 10oz baby girl who I named Natalee Nicole. I never got to hear her cry or have her wrap her precious and tiny fingers around mine...nor will I ever get to. She was a total Griffith and looked just like her daddy. Never knowing anyone who has lost a child, I was in complete shock....I still can't believe it sometimes...But I also see it as a blessing, b/c my Natalee will never hurt or have heartache b/c she is with Jesus where I just know she watches over us everyday... We buried her and bought the two plots next to her... I go about every week and take flowers over there...I've never been the kind of person who does that, but again I've never had a child that's passed away either. She will always be our tiny little angel, and I am so blessed to have gotten the opportunity to have her the time I did. I feel for Joe b/c he didn't get to have her the way I did, but he is so amazing and wonderful and he, God, and the prayers of others is what's gotten me thru all of this. I'm still far from healing, b/c I just don't see myself ever not missing her and wondering what she would be like or look like, but I just take it one day at a time b/c thats all I can do. I dunno why I felt the need to write any of this down....maybe for healing, or maybe for ppl that haven't been in my shoes will see that it IS a big deal and it wasn't like a miscarriage...I had a full term baby....no matter what anyone says she was perfect....and will always be in my eyes....
I love you Natalee Nicole...more than words could ever ever ever express....