I know Shelby is getting older and bigger, but I don't realize it unless I see littler babies or look at pictures like these where her head was as big as the palm of my hand...
She was so tiny....now she is quite a handful in more ways than one. I have to say though, that the older she gets the more fun we have....I love getting to sleep through the night....I don't miss waking up every other hour at all! She really and truly is the BEST thing I have ever done. She's the one person who never gets tired of me...I think that in all honesty I need her just as much as she needs me....I think God knew that all along....she is definately what keeps me going even though I don't want to sometimes.
Everything I do is for her....
I sacrifice all and anything....
I've been quite emotional since Jessica's baby Annalise was born...I never thought I would see so many tiny babies all smaller than Shelby ever was....I saw a baby that weighed only a pound and a half! It tears me up and hurts my heart....I haven't been able to visit Annalise since a day before Christmas Eve.....not that I don't want to....I know Annalise is fine and will be going home very soon....it's just a baby died on Christmas Eve....and I can't handle going in the NICU and seeing all those precious little miracles and wonder if that baby is going to live or not. I always thought that I was a strong person, but when it comes to this....I just can't handle it.....
My sister, however is one of the strongest people I have ever met....I would have never have been able to handle having to leave my newborn in the hospital....of course I know you do whatever is best for the baby, but I would have lost it. I thank God everyday for my daughter's health....it wasn't but a year ago I had to run all kinds of tests because they thought Shelby was going to have all kinds of problems.....but she doesn't have one.....except a nut for a mother....but hey....she stills loves me more than anyone! Ok....well....thanks for the therapy session....I needed it....lol.....
God Bless and XOXO

Loves~ Jennifer Rene'